I know I haven’t seen him in a long time, I know we didn’t said our farewells properly after high school, I know that things between us didn’t go so well, but regardless of the things that happened before I am still sad of the lost.
The cause of it was so stupid but I don’t have the right to be mad. And even though I am mad, there is nothing more I can do. I can’t rewind time. Sometimes I did wish that we had a better relationship.
Although we only lasted for a small amount of time, I did loved him back then. I realized we were still young and immature that we didn’t know how to prioritize things. Things ended between us but I still considered him as my friend.
But even if I wanted to be his friend, he still kept his distance from me. I understood that, and so I respected his decision. He graduated. Then I graduated and moved out. Ever since the day I moved, I haven’t seen him nor contacted him.
Now, its been a week since he died. I still can’t believe that it happened. There’s nothing I can do. I can’t even attend his wake. All I can do is to accept it and pray for his soul.